Hello all,
I know that this post isn't fitness related but....since I have gotten lots of email from my Instagram account (@msjonez10) where I post all of my fitness stuff :) what were the email questions?? Well...they range from "how have I been feeling this pregnancy?" All the way to "you're so glowing, I was so______during my pregnancy." Some people wrote me frustrated, some people wrote me curious, some people wrote me discouraged, & some were just health/fitness related.
The truth is, I always have conflicted feelings because I have friends who love being pregnant & friends who are still trying to become pregnant. I am conflicted often to not offend anyone or to voice a certain opinion on any pregnancy topic! But....it's my own personal journey, so for that reason....it's just my journey. I don't push my journey on anyone nor do I bring negative vibes regarding anyone else's opinions or journeys.
The truth is....I don't really enjoy pregnancy. I spent several weeks feeling pretty bad about this fact because we planned & prayed for Logan for a while. I felt bad for not feeling super excited about growing round & getting that pregnancy glow.
So how do I feel? I feel blessed & grateful that my body has allowed for me to carry my sweet prince. I feel blessed that baby Logan is healthy & growing perfectly. I cannot WAIT for Logan to get here in November. I cannot wait to see my prince's gorgeous face!!
But....I don't like not being in control of my weight or my hormones. I don't like feeling constantly tired & exhausted. I don't like my hips expanding, my face breaking out & as a personal trainer----I really am struggling with the scale rising every week. I love my prince already, I am grateful for him, but the process just isn't my favorite....it's not even in the top 10 of my favorites.
The truth is, my son is a blessing. My son is a miracle & we as women are miraculous beings for the ability to create life inside of our own bodies for 10 months. But the truth also is....for everyone...growing a human inside you is work, it changes you, it controls you, it makes you feel different.
I was so fortunate to have such a smooth pregnancy up to this point. No morning sickness, still able to workout, not craving anything crazy, & no food aversions. I have a whole new & amazing respect for working pregnant mamas, those mamas who were sick their whole pregnancy, & mamas who think all food is gross! Clap clap clap to you all!!!
So.....for all those asking me how I am feeling??? I feel great for the most part. I'm tired---I'm also growing a human, so of course I am. I hate my breakouts---but I love my concealer. I can't run a marathon anymore---but I can run a 1/2 marathon. I don't have too many complaints & I am so so grateful for that!
For those writing me that are feeling frustrated or discouraged because they hate that they are growing so big, they aren't happy with the way they are looking....I feel ya! I really do! I struggle daily to just understand that in order for our miracle growing inside us to be healthy & happy....we must change ourselves.
It's temporary frustration for our miracle to be in our lives always. We as women spend lots of time working on our looks, our bodies, our hair, etc. when we become pregnant, & even as moms, those things aren't so important anymore. Our children consume our time & become our priority. But those changes start with pregnancy & that is a process of accepting. I'm learning to accept daily that these changes to my body are necessary & important for my prince---even if these changes aren't my favorite!
I have not enjoyed gaining weight or watching my body change....but everyday I enjoy knowing that my son will be here soon. That although me & my husband created him together, I alone am growing him inside me. A human life, I am feeding him & nurturing him even in the womb. Our connection is perfect....he will always be mama's boy because mama bear grew him & nurtured him. I am blessed, grateful, & happy that I can do this for my son (and for my husband).
Truth is....pregnancy isn't my favorite, but I'm in love with what pregnancy brings me & learning daily to understand the pregnancy process & accept & embrace the changes for what they will bring me in November...Mr. Logan "LJ" Jacob Williams
I hope this answers some of y'all's questions & hopefully helps some of y'all that emailed me not to feel so bad & not to be so hard on yourself. I've been there, I'm going through it now & I know it can be difficult. Don't let the media or anyone else tell you that your feelings are wrong...because I've gotten those emails also!! It's not wrong to have feelings & emotions!
Love all you mama bears out there & I would love to hear back from you all. You can email me from my site or directly on here!
Xoxo
Morgan
www.lifeofabballwife.wix.com/mwfit
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